13Julyo9
Today, my form teacher praise me... she say my attendance have become very gd n i am so happy. I believe as long as i put in effort, i will get something de. Eventhough is tiring, but i will always tell myself tat de journey is getting shorter, only left with 106days to go. Everyday studies till very late then sometime come home still got tution but i will still bear with it. Eventhough i still don noe wat course i wan to study but i believe tat i can make it to poly. Hahas..
Ytd work, like running station... Run MDS de whole morning alone n hold cash. Some problem cope up n make me feel very moody cos have been doing for so long le still can make mistake n feel very puzzle... i keep thinking bout it de whole night n even my eyes r close but my mind r not. Forget it le, but as for one thing... which is i still prefer de last time memories. Sometime i really hope tat by going to work will make me feel abit more happy n relax cos after 6days of studying, working is a form of relief even sometime i feel tired but sometime i feel tat too long nvr work, i lose de interest in it le, even will thought of give up.I noe i shld not think tat way cos is very hard to be a TFM but i will ask myself, is tis wat i really wan.
I don wan think le, no point... i will noe de answer soon n will make a decision which i will not regret after my O-level. Studies first, don think of anything, leave all de thinking after tat. At least i feel tat once sch reopen, i am more happy n life is getting more meaningful. 106days left