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Today is de last day of mentoring program... Well, 3hrs in AVA room... I kana cheated, i saw them putting alot of chocolate syrup on top of de biscuits but when i ate it, ther r wasabi inside. Wa.... i almost choke to death, i ate 3 cos my grp r losing n we have to finish it. Is de first time i eat wasabi, de taste make me keep crying, so disgusting. The mentoring program teach us alot, today is bout cyber wellness n life purpose.
I have started painting on my canvas n i am having fun... Life is as usual, go to sch but now i cant go out n have fun le,so sad.... after paying phone bills for my bro n buying assignment books, i am broke now:( Tmr i am going to a centre to learn baking cos is a promise. I think i am going to tat centre quite often cos i can get help ther but is quite far, woodlands. Recently, i am weird weird de, feel like being alone like wat i was before, don care bout anything...
I cant believe tat i am late for my first O-level paper, i feel so ashamed of myself. When i walk into de hall, everyone have already started writting n i am lost, finding wher i suppose to sit. When i finally found my sit, i need time to calm down cos i am panicking, i feel so scare. When i have calm myself down, i left wit only 1hr45min to do but luckily i manage to finish it. Feel so stupid...
Today i share abit of my personal thing wit my grp cos they r all sharing n a girl, ask me" do i hate my parent for leaving me behind"? I say no cos after so many yrs, i have already get use to it n i understand. Feeling so tired wit tis kind of life but ending it is very stupid, giving up is stupid so jus carry on n believe tat it will get better. A few more mths to go....