Wednesday, May 20, 2009
20.5.09
200509
How i wish i could sleep forever... i am not going to wake up, i don wan to see tis beautiful world anymore. I thought i could accept but i am wrong, after all i fall again. Not once but many, how can i stand up again. The distance is getting shorter, can i finish it wit a smile or i will end up crying. I don wan tis to happen de, don wan don wan.....but it happen again n again. I don noe wat to do, i am lost. I wan to be de tracy i once was. Y cant it happen again?? I ruin it wit my bare hand... Can i still continue to stay strong.
Is there a way out.... mus i give up something. Y cant i have both at de same time, y mus i lose when i get something. I blame myself for everything i have done... i did not try hard enough.. i cause all tis to happen. Wat am i suppose to do next?? I am running out of time. I don have much time, can i keep going. I wan to forget all de past, i don wan to compare anymore. I am going to turn at another angle to slove de problem. Sry i have disappoint all those who believe n have faith in me. Everything will be a new start again. I have to keep going, it is ending soon....
