13may09
Today is my bro,terence, birthday...haha, lucky it didnt fall on de fri de 13. Well, exam going end soon, 3 more to go. I think i might not do well for this time but i will work harder next time, i will accept watever results i get n will not feel like last time anymore cos once a person fall too much, it takes time to recover n take one step at a time. I think i have neglect my studies too much tat i lose interest.
My dad called, n i have a chat wit him... He say it is his duty to support us n let us have a better education which will let us have a bright future. He also say, that is y he keep asking us to study hard but he added if he really no longer can support us anymore, will we blame him?? He say even if we wan to study but he can no longer give anymore n it is already limits le, he cant carry on le. I didnt think n i answer him, no i wouldnt blame u cos he have already tried to give all he could. But de last thing he say tat he will not give up n will work hard. I really cant expect tat ther is tis day my whole family going to have hard time... If tat thing didnt happened, i think right now i don have to think of all tis n my dad will be here le.. Even if i really can get a chance to go poly but de sch fees, not cheap. Actually i shld thanx my dad for trying his best to give us de best he could but i had nvr thanx him before yet all tis yrs, i blame him for not understanding me. I don wish tat day will come but if it does, it is very diffcult to leave n give up wat i have now but i will accept... I rather my siblings have de chance of studying. Yes tis is not wat i wan... but i cant change it, fight for myself. Decision is mine, i will decide wisely n hope tat i will not regret.
Anyway.... ther r still mths to go, i am thinking too far bah but sometime it will jus come across my mind n i will think bout it. Imagine, all tis really happen, will i really have de courage to accept, or will i be scare. No matter wat happen, tracy will face it.. Human Being r really a kind of complicated creature which r so difficult to understand... Devil & Angel, True&Fake, Trust, Cruel, Honesty, Lies, Betray, Backstab, Kind, Selfish... so many, which is real?? So many different kind of ppl, so difficult to see n understand. Going back to work soon...