21april09
Haix~is coming to de end of april le... My first paper will start next week,exam r round de corner n eveyday going to sch till 5 or 6pm really makes me feel tired.. I have to attend extra extra lesson(ACP). I did badly in my CA1 so i have to go ACP, yes it is tiring but i believe tat all de hard work i put in will not be wasted as long as i tried my best. I skip sch, go to sch late often in de beginning of de year but now i changed.. i tell myself in order to achieve a better result i have to do something to it.
I will forever remember wat my teachers told me. First, tracy, don let de head of department feel tat it is a mistake for promoting u to express, prove it to them tat u can do it. It is only de 0.1% of de students can get into express so treasure de chances we give u, we believe u can do it. U failed but it dosent mean tat u will forever fail, failing is de key to success if u don give up, keep trying harder if u fail this time. I have many teachers tat believe in me, they hope tat i have a bright future. I noe they care for me n i don wan to disappoint them but i really have to work very hard. I really scare to disappoint them cos they believe in me so much. Not only teachers, friends, families believe in me too.
I really dislike studying but if i don study wat i wan to do?? i don noe.. I am very stress wit studies... i hate to use de word 'STRESS' but i really am.... I told him bout it n he say he wan to help but i rejected him cos he also have alot of things to do... I don noe where to begin, i wan to be like last time, have gd grades. I used to go to sch happily but now i am dragging my foot to sch, i wan to learn but sometime jus felt very left out cos no matter wat i am once a student from Normal Acadamic, i cant really catch up them, i am always de last few in de running track. Tired of running after them but i have no choice but to continue cos i have to finish tis race no matter wat i faced.
I really wan to stand up again, i am tired of falling..I blame myself for all tis failure, i always think tat i didnt work hard enough n put in enough effort to get wat i want. Studies really make me unhappy when all tis happened. Last year, i almost repeat but my teacher give me a chance. I lied to many ppl bout my studies, whenever they say how was my studies, i will say ok but now i can say tat it is horrible...
I mus not give up, i don wan to disappoint those who believe in me, can de, one step at a time, slow n steady... i believe therefore i am. Trust urself, have confident... Jiayou :) Hard work will prove everything