17april09
I went to work n didnt expect tat jillian working too. so happy working wit her cos our time left not much le... yes treasure it!! After work we when to talk n i share wit her a lot.. i cried again, i don wan to show my weakness but i cant hold it anymore, sry. I have to face my back to u cos it is very ugly.. I once told u before tat i feel like giving up everything i have now n leave tis place n go to somewhere far away to start afresh, i have fall from a very high point to de ground n i am alone all alone now.. yet u r still there for me.U told me if leaving make u happy then leave... U r helping me now,thanx for everything tat u did for me. I heard bad news from jillian was tat both of us will leave tgt n de feedback annie give me.I noe my performance in mac have drop a lot, yes i have disappointed all of u.. i am sry to all those who trust me n believe tat i can do it.
Jillian can u stop scarifing urself for me, pls do something for urself, if u keep on doing all tis is jus cos u wan me to be happy then i can only tell u tat i not happy cos u doing for me not urself.. do u noe tat in my entire life, no one have do so many things for me. I noe u blame urself for making tat mistake but i have forgiven u.. i don blame u. I noe u have problems too, u r keeping cos u don wan me to think too much. I talk alot wit jillian n while walking home n lying on de bed, i could see n remember watever we have did tgt. When we quarrel, laugh, share things n so many so many.... I AM SORRY FRIEND... i don wish to lose u but i cant do anything to it n i will try my best to accept it if it really happen.
Tmr will be my last working day n after tat i will not be able to have chance working wit jillian n bm le.. they r leaving n i going for a long break. Thanx to everybody in HGA8 who helped me n specially thanx to bm for being my trainer n coach me till now n being by my side n nvr give up on me. Really apprecite it n hope u will always be happy. i wouldnt forget watever u taught me. ya i am fat le.. thanx man. LOVE U ALL GUYS