Thursday, April 16, 2009
16.4.09
16 april 09
heyhey... today is 16 my farvourite no. my birthday have pass 1mth le.Lesson in sch r getting more n more boring n tiring, eventhought i attend sch everyday but de amount of knowledge i asborbed is not much. So excited for tmr to come, i working wit ws, hope to have a great day. There is a talk on self-acceptance today n ya it is quite meaningful. The way u look at urself. Having a chat wit jillian on 15/4 really make me burst out... i don noe y.. recently i have been crying a lot, think a lot. I jus heard some bad news from jillian tat 2 of de fms r leaving. She told me to be mentally prepare but i feel very scare n sad, i don wan all tis to happen. I cant live without u... from a crew to a CL now a FM. Together de hard work we put into it, now u r leaving. I noe u will still contact me but de feeling no longer there. Didnt we said before let annie make de decision, don tell her to let who go. At a point of time we r so cold toward each other n now i share everything to u but when u leave, i have nothing left!!! NOTHING.. I noe it is not up to us to choose or make decision, in de end we have to accept everything n face it. I jus felt tat it is very unfair to both of us, maybe there nothing which r fair. I am sry, i noe de chances of u leaving is high n i cant do anything to it. U r giving urself to it cos of me... HGA8 is where we r born, leave n bring all de memories along... I AM SORRY
